Starting Now, Everything Changes

Starting Now, Everything Changes

It’s 11pm, I’m in the library, and although I should be focusing on my essay, I find myself unable to. Now, this may sound like every university student during exam and deadline season who just wants it to all be over so summer can start, but I think there’s something else to it. I let life get in the way of my work far too often. I let my mind go over everything that’s happened in the past few weeks, over-analysing all of it and just stressing myself out way too much. Life is difficult enough without getting worked up about the past. I should probably be more concerned about the future, but here I am, shaking my head at myself and not really knowing why I can’t just get my shit together and get my work done. Maybe it’s cause I’m scared of just how quickly time is passing, I do find myself staring at my calendar and freaking out at the fact I have less than 8 weeks left of Second Year. Fear tends to have two effects, you either freeze or you run… I think this could be classified as a freezing moment… Or it could be that I have so many things on my mind, that putting everything into a realistic timetable to get it all done, just seems like an impossible task. I could make up a long list of reasons why everything seems to come before writing 3,000 words of ‘insight’ into Hong Kong Cinema even though it’s due in less than 3 weeks, but that would just be more procrastination. Continue reading “Starting Now, Everything Changes”

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